It was another appointment for my blood pressure, by this point I was 39+1 weeks and very uncomfortable/scared! For a few days I had pains that were irregular and disappointing, I desperately wanted to go into labour naturally as I had an induction booked for 40 weeks. At the appointment my blood pressure was very high, it wouldn’t come down, they kept giving me tablet after tablet and nothing worked, my swelling was really bad and the protein level in my urine was sky high. Of course, I had preeclampsia. The doctor wanted to get things moving, I was upset but kept calm, the doctor checked me over and said I was already 2cm dialated! She said that they would break my waters as soon as there was a room available so I better call my birthing partners (my mum and Danny). So scared at this point but the doctor kept saying I was the calmest patient she had so I had to keep that up! I got to the delivery suite about half an hour later, still no sign of my mum and Danny but luckily they showed up not so long after. The midwife came to break my waters and it was an uncomfortable feeling to say the least, especially after, it was like a continuous leak underneath me! I was attached to a blood pressure monitor and had a cannula in for the pitocin (what they use to induce contractions), I was also attached to a foetal monitor around my belly. Not the free moving labour I wanted but it’s what I got. After about an hour of contractions that were very bare able I asked for an epidural, this was only as I anticipated the painful contractions that were going to come my way.
The epidural was not like I expected, I had kept calm through the whole day and now I was crying and shaking uncontrollably, it wasn’t painful it was just the strangest sensation I have ever known, it wasn’t nice at all. I still had all these monitors attached to me whilst leaning at the side of the bed with my knees up (not easy). Danny was watching what the doctor was doing behind me and my mum was standing next to me.
About 20 minutes after the epidural, the baby’s heart rate was dropping, I had to move to my side to see if it would help, it did for a minute or so and then drop again. The midwife tried to get a heart monitor attached to the baby’s head but didn’t have much luck and then there was no heartbeat. The student in the room pressed the emergency buzzer and doctors came in, my mum was panicked but I knew it was going to be fine. The doctor said I needed a c section pretty quickly as the baby was distressed. I agreed and we went through to surgery straight away, Danny had to wait until I was set up until he could come in.
In theatre I moved across to another bed and my epidural was topped up, it wasn’t working fully yet and it never crossed my mind that I’d be able to feel anything. But when they started to cut my stomach I felt it all and was crying and crying, then Danny came in and had to be told to leave as I had to be put to sleep, as they were setting up the anaesthetic they continued cutting me open, it was horrendous but now I know they only had so long to get my baby out. I had a mask over my face and fell asleep.
I remember waking up crying and heard my mums voice in the background telling me it’s okay and the baby is okay. I was really groggy and was asked if I wanted to see the baby straight away and I remember saying no I’m too dazed (sorry)! But a few minutes later I wanted to see her and Danny brought her through.
Leah. Born 25/11/2016. 10:13pm.